Life Without Regimen

Cafe Meow – The Unfinished Cat Bag That I Made In My Time Of Despair 3 years ago.

The security of a job may bring a stable income but what satisfaction do you derive from it if it’s just a job? Someone told me a long time ago that if you love what you do, you wouldn’t have worked a day in your life. I decided then that my life’s choices would be based upon what I wanted to do rather than for the sake of survival. It was a tough decision to cut back on my spending habits but it allowed me the flexibility of choosing my assignments & what I could to with all the free time on my hands.

When God showed me the tasks ahead, I thought I was going to be sent on mission trips. I’ve taken disaster relief & counseling courses to be sent to crisis-stricken areas. I’m still on call should there be a need to go to Pakistan, India or Afghanistan to council children. However, putting myself up for missions of such nature may put a frown on any parent’s face, I may never get to go if it’s not in God’s will that I’m sent. How then, if I have a tremendous desire to serve God in times of adversities? My dad is surely going to smile in heaven knowing that the last time he’d stop me from doing something while I was in my teens, I went out & got published. I’m quite sure if he was around, he would say, “just be careful & think with your coconut before you act.” My mom has got short term memory loss & dementia due to her stroke several years ago. I’m sure she would forget that I went on missions right after I tell her. If I held a 9 to 5 job, I don’t think it would be possible to take off at a moment’s notice. Alright, my setback may be fewer beauty essentials & nail polish, but I get to reach the people & tell them about God’s amazing love! If I get martyred, then I would receive my crown of life & crown of glory on the other side! Okay, the strangest thing is, I’ve been doing without a beauty regimen for three months now to let my skin rest, allowing my freckles to free form & freak out. I have to seriously think about putting some level of protection on myself before I go out. The guy who assisted me in my accident called me “Aunty…!”

In preparation, I have also spent a considerable amount of time with people who meant a lot to me. Those who were there for me in my time of bereavement, those who were grieving the loss of their loved ones & those who needed comfort because they were separated from their loved ones. I believe God had given me similar experiences in my past which helped me empathise with their situation. How else could I explain the circumstances in which I am put to the test? I wouldn’t know where God would send me next, but should I leave, I would have left with many pleasant memories of time spent with them. Surely they must have benefited from the ministry as some has gone on to grow in the Lord, some has healed in the separation & some were reunited & have gone on their way. Whichever way God has used me to be a part of these people’s lives would be forever embedded in my mind. He truly answers prayers. Not everything was smooth sailing. There were many bumps along the long & windy road. At times, there were fog & I couldn’t see. Other times were as clear as day where God wanted me to be. Still, there was no map to show where the road was going & the junction to the final destination was just a step away. The road well-worn may be the easier road to take & most people often choose to take that road but the journey for me is on the road less traveled. As I take my step of faith towards my destiny, I know there will be disappointments I would face along the way with people who can’t share the same faith nor see the light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe if they would take up their cross & follow Him, things might be different…..

The greater challenge would be having enough courage to go forward even when you don’t see any directions in spite of making wrong turns. The excitement of having encounters that would take you on another roller coaster ride along the journey of life without regimen.

Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Psalm 37:3 – 6.

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