Undivided Attention Needed

In the passed two months, I’d been hitting the books any chance I’ve got, knowing that this would be my make or break point in my career as a dive instructor. You wouldn’t believe this but I flunk the exam. Despite burning the midnight oil, I’ve been juggling my work, the association, the dive conference & my assignments pretty well but heck, it wasn’t just me who flunk, the whole class of four flunk too!!! Though I don’t feel as bad as I should since the retake is in two weeks time, I still can’t believe I flunk! In the PADI examination 6 years ago during my crossover from BSAC, I scored 98% on Standards & Procedures & 95% for the rest of the papers. What went wrong??? The candidates from Hong Kong did a brave thing by retaking their exams immediately & subsequently went on to become NAUI Course Directors. (Congratulations, Kenneth & Tony!!! It’s been a pleasure to work with you!!!!) Clemence & I will retake after a break & I’m going to hit the books till I ace it!!! BUSHWAH!!!

Could it possibly be the distraction that took me away in the pass two weeks? Well, whatever it is, I doubt this distraction is here to stay. Anything that blows hot & cold is inconsistent & never lasting. I had thought it was too good to be true when everything seemed to feel so right & to have everything fall into place but there was just something that I couldn’t well place. Maybe it was trust. Maybe it was intention. Maybe this wind just blows where the fun is & there’s nothing to sustain it here. A thousand maybes but let the truth be told in the beholder for courage is in the ability to be true to oneself. Perhaps words don’t mean much to those who don’t value what’s being said. And what’s being said was said in a haste to get results. I certainly learnt a lot. Much more than what the course offered. The stakes are high when the bounty is great. I’m just happy to learn this before I placed my bet. No doubt, I will place my undivided attention where it’s needed & that’s in ace-ing my Instructor Trainer course on the 16th…!

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